Welllll last night's blog wasn't the happiest of blogs now was it...but you know as soon as i wrote that blog i went and laid down and i was just praying to god how unfair this all was and then i leaned over and grabbed my stack of verses and let it fall half down and i picked the one that was facing up....and you know what it said James 1:2-3 "Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance." and i was just laying there reading it going really god....really! so i got up and went to Jess's room and knocked on her door and we both looked at each other and laughed...she then preceded to hand me her phone as i handed her the verse...her phone said..."i read your blog...Ephesians 4:26 "in your anger do not sin; do not let the sun go down while you are still angry."
i just looked at her as she looked at me and then we both just went and sat down and talked.....that was at 1:29....we went to bed at 3:27....but it was needed we both needed to talk through some things and just vent...by the time we went to bed we both were laughing so hard we cried. it was true joy to be able to go to bed not angry anymore.
what I've learned from this? ....is basically exactly what the verses say...in James it talks about considering the hard times joy: why in the world would i want to be thankful for the hard times, the times when I'm hurt...why!? but the Lord calls us to find the joy in it because he is testing our faith and pushing us to persevere. when you think about it, that's all nice and dandy sounding...like oh great thanks God for allowing that because i know you have a better plan but when you are in the moment and you don't want to even think of the positive because you are just to angry...that's a sin...and that goes straight into Ephesians....in your anger do not sin...but if you take that and James...James said to find joy in your trials and Ephesians says do not sin in your anger...do you see how they go together? and really it was more a slap in the face....yes i needed that slap in the face but it was still nonetheless, hard to take. i was sinning in my anger because i wasn't willing to find the joy in it. i wasn't willing to allow god to have complete control of it all. and just last night in our bible study we talked about how God wants all or nothing...
my prayer is that i can truly give him all, and not just 40% of the time...but all the time. are you giving him all? and i do mean all.
take today and enjoy the beauty because it is GORGEOUS outside...and just so you know you....it is dress day! ;)
have a beautiful day in the Lord,
Em
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