why dont i just have faith...

really! think about it. why don't i just have faith. true undeniable unchangeable irresistible unquestionable faith. So many times i am humbled to the Lord. just yesterday, yes yesterday said to my dad "i have no doubt that God wants me to spend my summer in Africa, but i have no idea how i am going to pay for it." my dad and i talked it out, i left and rocked it out to some christian music on the way back to school and just gave it all to God. but little did i know that i was going to be humbled today. I text Beth and said soooo i just found out that i need to turn in $1000 for my project by March 12th....thats two weeks! so when can we do the letters? (yes, i still have to write my letters, are you freaking out as much as i am?) any way she calls me and we are doing letters on Tuesday night, and just listening to her talk gave me so much peace and comfort and then for her to tell me just bring my self and what i want to put in my letter thoughts. they would provide the rest. do you know how much of a blessing that is to me? all paper, envelops, and ink. really!? that is so amazing! they are such loving caring people. it just made me fall before the Lord again in amazement. how great is our God!

i know this is short. but i just had to share.

have a great sunday.

ps. its a great day for a sunday drive ;)

em

a love hate relationship

Well it's Saturday morning....I haven't written in a while only because I've been sick. I feel better now but I'm still so worn out its ridiculous. But thankfully I feel so much better, I just need my throat to stop hurting; and all will be good.

I came home last night after picking up my daddy from the airport. It's been nice to be home for a little bit. I have some laundry that I need to do. But I have to say I had a rude awakening this morning from my dog. He stood at the end of my bed and barked at me until I got up. and ya know he didn't have to go out...he wasn't hungry he just wanted me to get up. now I'm sorry but that was just rude, especially at 8:20 in the morning! And he knows I am mad at him, and he knows it. He tried sitting on my lap and I said don't you even dare we are so fighting right now. So he sat on the opposite chair in the family room at me and every now and then I'll see him peeking over the chair's arm to look at me and I just glare back...its kind of fun actually lol

Well mom is in Texas for Uncle Bill's funeral, oh yeah that's something else that happened this week. My grandpa's brother passed away on Tuesday. Grandad took it kind of hard but then again who wouldn't...it was his brother. Anyway they drove down on Thursday and are coming back on Sunday. I sure do miss my mom, its weird that she isn't here when I am home. But I am enjoying the time with my dad, for sure!

Well tonight is a big night for tanner. He met the fairy on Thursday night at opening night at Anything Goes. And apparently they hit it off, Lauren wanted to hang out...sooooo we are! We are getting a bunch of people together and going out to eat so that its not awkward for them. I'm kind of excited to see how it will work out. But I don't want to be responsible for it if it doesn't....I want the whole world to know all I did in this was introduce them...that's it! the rest is on them! lets just make that clear. lol

Anyway I think that's about all for now...I need to go get started on the laundry.

Have a great Saturday!

Em

How majestic is our God

Hello again.

Well I just have to start out by saying I love the mornings when I get to sleep in and as soon as I get up I get straight into the word of God. It is the best way to start a day! You should try it!

So last night I had to work until 9 and then we had a prayer and worship night put on by all campus ministries...and all I have to say is wow. What an amazing blessing it was to be there last night. It was very moving and convicting. Instead of being afraid of talking to someone I should be more afraid as to where they are going to go when they die...heaven or hell. Those are two extremely real possibilities and yet I'm not concerned with it. I prayed the Lord would break my heart for the people on this campus, and if you are reading this and a believer too, I pray the Lord breaks your heart for the people on whatever campus you maybe on. Where are your friends going when they die? Remember the girl that sits next to you in Bio lab, have you even ever mentioned the name of Christ to her? Remember that professor that made a huge difference in your life just because of the way they cared, do you know where they are going when they die? Will you ever see them again? Think about it...it will break your heart. It did mine.

Well then after that we took Whitney and Ryan drinks because their rehearsal was going almost 2 hours longer than scheduled...oh the days of theatre! i know why i love it but i know why i hate it too! PS. Their opening night is Thursday night! Everyone should go. :)

I have a guest this week, her name is Anna. I'm so excited she is here!!! Everyone is! She was such a huge blessing to me last night! Its awesome to see her walk with the Lord grow everyday, and to be able to walk right beside her!

Well today is a incredibly busy afternoon and evening...class until 5:15 then rehearsal until 7 then the Project Haiti concert then bible study, then bowling, then Beth and Stefan's for game night....because WE DON'T HAVE CLASS TOMORROW!!!!!! wooot! I'm so excited! its going to be a great day!

Well i guess i should start it by taking a shower shouldn't i? i don't think people will appreciate it if i smell icky. because as we all know i appreciate it when people shower ;)

Well you all have a great day!

Em

ps...in case anyone was wondering i did get my nap yesterday... :)

here we go...

Well this is my first one and I'm not exactly what to write about so I'm just going to start...I think this might actually be fun.

Soo anyway I'm sitting here in the library at Lindenwood while Jess is in class. See I'm done for the day and I had this brilliant idea that I could nap while she is in her last class but for some reason all of the couches are full today. Why can't people just get up and leave?! I want to nap! Oh, well. I guess no nap for me.

Anyway I have a ton of stuff going on this week but its all good stuff like tomorrow night I'm staying up all night with my "family" because we don't have class on Wednesday so we are going to go bowling and go to Beth and Stefan's for a while afterwards to play games and eat food. Yum! I'm stoked! And before that is the LU goes red and blue concert. KH is playing, and you know I'm their favorite fan! woot!

Anyway so this guy that was just sitting next to me really didn't smell all that delightful and typically this is where I would say "I appreciate people who shower" but it wasn't because he didn't shower...it was because he reeked of smoke. People, people, people...it even says on the cigarette box that it can kill! Seriously! Com'on now! I don't appreciate you trying to kill me in the process of killing yourself! In the words of Stephanie Tanner, Full House, How rude!

Today is exactly 4 months until my 21st birthday...and I couldn't be more excited because in less than 4 months I'll be leaving for Africa!!! What an awesome birthday present! I couldn't think of a better one! I am so excited to be meeting the team and growing with everyone and sharing my faith! It will be a challenging but exciting summer. Please don't get me wrong. I'm scared, but I have so much peace about it, its ridiculous! haha Who knew I would ever have so much peace about going thousands of miles away for 6 weeks. It most definitely is a God thing! Without Him none of this would ever be possible! I send off my deposit soon and as soon as I do that is when it becomes so incredibly real. Kind of that "Wow!" moment. Like I know I've said yes to the trip but I'm putting money down, I'm signing my name. It's done kind of a thing.

Yeah know sometimes I just like to sit and think of all the many different blessings in my life, and some I'll never even recognize but I know they are there. I have some of the most amazing friends and family. I have no idea what my life would be with out them, and I pray to the Lord every day that I never have to know! I have gone through many struggles in my life but I think I finally see how they were blessings. They have made me who I am. And I pray everyday that who I am today is pleasing and honoring to the Lord. Yes there are some things that I would never ever want to repeat but I thank the Lord for the people who where there to help me walk through everything. I am a very blessed young lady. So to my friends and family that may read this, thank you for always being there and being by my side. You are a gift from God, that i treasure everyday!

Well I think that is enough for now...I'm going to try and hunt down a couch! I'm determined to find one! ;)

Em

Ps. Go read Psalm 100....let it be an encouragment to your day, like it was mine!