a waterfall to say the least...

today, one of my best friends left.

that in its self is hard to say. Tanner Brooks is an amazing guy, and awesome friend. I have known him for only 258 days. In those days he has managed to wiggle his way into my heart; and not only become a friend, but a brother. He has inspired, calmed, laugh, sang, danced, cheered up, saved the nights with qt, and tons more - with many of us. needless to say, he is always been so much fun to hang around. be jealous if you didn't get the chance to hang out with him.

i know we will talk about the visits to Indiana and when he comes here. but i have to think realistically. it just wont be the same. i can't text or call him to say, "QT?" because that would be a long drive to get qt. worth it? yes. possible multiple times a week, no. it will be great when he comes here or we go there. i know. and those moments together will be amazing. but i have to think that my life will be different with out him.

he was such a big help to Jessi this year and i just think about... what will i do when i need him? its hard to think that tomorrow he wont be at lunch. but i think the weirdest part will be when we come back in the fall, and he's not here.

please understand tanner didn't die. he just moved back home and is transferring to a different school. his reasoning for transferring, is very logical. i just don't like it. he will be an amazing Olympic shooter, and lawyer. i know the lord has awesome plans for his life! and i truly believe he was put into my life for some reason, i have yet to figure out.

one of the most vivid memories i have while he was here - is from the night we were up for hours talking politics. the boy is not afraid to stand up for what he believes in. that's very admirable. he believes what he believes, and has back up for it all. I can honestly say, that if i end up marrying a man half the man of what tanner is, i will be blessed. tanner has been such a great example of such a Godly, a fun spirited, intelligent man.

Tanner Lee Brooks came into our lives 258 days ago and turned our world up side down. my life will never be the same, and for that, i am thankful.

...i hate change.